SO HERE I SIT!

So, here I sit. 

I have no one to blame but myself and I realize this.

 Ron wanted me to go to the gig they are playing at tonight,  I said no, I would not no anyone and be bored sitting there. So, here I sit!

Then I found out about a Pampered Chef party that was being held this evening and was asked if I wanted to go,  I said yes, because I love the stuff plus I would see some people I don't usually see but I said if it was to much of a problem me going, not to worry about it , because of the fact there might not be enough room for me since other people were being picked up, though I didnt think there would be a problem,    - but  here I sit.

I actually was looking forward to staying home by myself, being able to read or watch whatever I wanted on the TV, but a night out with the girls would be more fun - but, here I sit - - -

So instead of reading or watching TV, here I sit - writing on my blog!

For those of you who know about the 12 viles of blood drawn from my arm - I finally got the reports last evening. Most of it is good but there are a few things wrong - my cholestrial is high and I am even on medication! My adreneal gland is slow growth because of the trauma my body has been through since 2006 up until 2009. That's how the Doctor stated it, my body is still traumatized so that explains why I am so tired after working, then my CRP results are not good, so I have to go back for another test on that - to make sure the first test turned out right - this has something to do with my heart. (nice, eh?). Oh, my thyroid,  even with me on medication is on the slow side, so I am taking iodine drops along with the pill.

She was not happy with my weight loss because I did not lose as much as she expected I would. So, here I sit,   pondering all of the above - - -if there is one thing I do not like to do it's "ponder" - - -so, here I sit!

I have to admit at my age, I'm tired - tired of trying - - to excercise,  tired of trying - - to watch what I eat - I've been there, done that - twice to be exact and succeeded. I was younger, ambitious and wanted the challenge -

My husband, my one son are both on my case which does not sit well with me,  but I know they want the best for me and care what happens. But do I ? - that is the question - so here I sit - - -

I have a gawd awful hernia that sticks out like you would not believe, it's awful and nothing I wear can hide it - nothing! if I choose to have it operated on now, there is a chance that I will  develop lung infections or problems since they would have to put the intestens back inside and also the fat on my body which would all press up against my diaphram making it hard to breathe - - scares the begees out of me because of all the lung problems in my immediate family - - They want me to lose weight - 25 to 35 lbs b/4 they operate

 so here I sit - - tired, discouraged and without the gumption that was once a big part of me.  I would love to have a personal trainer come to the house, I would be commited, I am not good at commiting to go the gym,

I would be to tired, it would be to late, I would always have an excuse  damn, I've depressed myself

SO HERE I SIT

Cousins

Just a short one but an important one for me to write.

 

Tonight I was on Face book sort of late, late for me. I'm usually in bed by this time!'

To my delight I was  able to chat with two of my male cousins from the Fidazzo side this evening. We didn't say much but it was great to chat with them. What a lift they gave me to an otherwise hectic evening.

I'm not able to talk with my brother to often and he is my only sibling , my parents are both gone - but I do have GREAT  cousins!!!!  Face book has played an important part in all of . With Face book I have found school friends and keep in touch with family more often, 

I can't believe the doctor I just started going to called me at 2:25 to cancel my appointment that was for 5!

If I did that to her I would have to pay one hundred  dollars - thats what she charges you if you don't cancel 24 hours b/4. She sure dropped a lot of pegs in my book - - -I was so wanting to find out the results to the 12 vile's of blood they took from me two weeks ago!!

Food for thought - Pittsburgh is known as the City of Bridges - so how many bridges do we have?

Churchill said  "We will never surrender!" 

                                                                      

Clark's Summit

CLARK’S  SUMMIT  UPDATE

It’s been awhile since you have heard from me. If you check my e-mail , you will  see  on the left hand side the address to my blog. If you are interested in reading it all you have to do is click on it. It should take you right to it, if not you can just jot it down and then enter it like this

“http://forgetfuld.blogspot.com “

It’s nothing special, this blog of mine, I just write about things that I may be thinking about or something that has impressed me. It’s like writing a letter to a friend.  I have great plans for my blog though – I would like to include recipe’s and maybe a few hints . I think that would make it more interesting.

Like I want to write about my cousin reunion I just went to and how much fun it was and the restaurant we went to in Crabtree. About the book I just ordered and  received  called  “The Silver Spoon”  -it’s the Italian Bible and I found out about it from my cousin at the cousin reunion – The new Alternative doctor I am going to that a member of the library board told me about and what she has me do and take.  I have all kind of subjects to write about  but have not started any of them yet.

I don’t believe I have much of a following but that’s ok by me, I’m doing what I like and that is writing.  Sometimes I write to much about myself and other times I write nonsense stuff  - - -you can decide if you want to follow my blog or not.

Hugs

Dee