Wednesday, April 17, 2013


 A letter I sent to a woman who lives alone, and down in the dumps, just thought I would share

Jo Ann,

  No, your right, life will never be the normal we know again. Lets face it, we will never feel safe again. But we will be able to enjoy our life and thank God for each day He gives us.
  I had Breast Cancer six years ago, I was treated with chemo and rads, and had been clean for six years, until I found the lump at the end of January. I never thought it could be cancer again, ha! I was so wrong.
  So now I just had my first chemo treatment last Friday and it was like dea ja vu, it was as if I had just been in the treatment room last month, not six years ago. The same chairs, the same snacks, the nurses, I wanted to scream and ask why am I here again, why do I have to go through this again, why me. Yes all those thoughts went through my mind. But then it was as if God nudged me and said - be thankful you found the lump, be lucky they got it all, be thankful. I am thankful even though I know it is triple negative stage 2 grade 3, it could be a lot worse and I am thankful it is not.
  I feel alone even when I am not alone, everyone seems to have a free mind, they laugh, talk, shop and so on.  I laugh and talk and shop, but not with a free mind.  I even think twice if I should buy something for myself.  I wonder if I will be here for the holidays or even for our anniversary in August. These are negative thoughts, and I know I should not think them, but sometimes they just pop in my mind.

 God has blessed me in so many ways, I pray that He continues to. I'm a fighter, I gave it all I had the first time, and I am trying to do it again this time. You should continue to do so too.
We are sisters, with our sisters standing behind us - we can do this. With our strong Faith, we can get through this. With determination we can get through this. With prayer we will get though this.

Dee, February's daughter


inChristalone said...

Thank you for sharing your letter of encouragement and all the things you chose to be thankful for. You chose to see the glass half full instead of half empty. It can make a big difference. You are an encouragement to us all.

Riverwatch said...

I worked with a nurse whose breast cancer diagnosis at 52 was as bad as it can get! Yet 18 years later she is least of cancer.
She had radium implants, surgery, radiation, chemotherapy and the estrogen-blocking drug, Tamoxoflen.
Hang onto hope,

Dee's shared items


This time of year makes me think of all of those things I have to be thankful for - - - -
my husband
my children
my grandchildren
my health
my freedom
always thankful for friends made