A letter I sent to a woman who lives alone, and down in the dumps, just thought I would share
No, your right, life will never be the normal we know again. Lets face it, we will never feel safe again. But we will be able to enjoy our life and thank God for each day He gives us.
I had Breast Cancer six years ago, I was treated with chemo and rads, and had been clean for six years, until I found the lump at the end of January. I never thought it could be cancer again, ha! I was so wrong.
So now I just had my first chemo treatment last Friday and it was like dea ja vu, it was as if I had just been in the treatment room last month, not six years ago. The same chairs, the same snacks, the nurses, I wanted to scream and ask why am I here again, why do I have to go through this again, why me. Yes all those thoughts went through my mind. But then it was as if God nudged me and said - be thankful you found the lump, be lucky they got it all, be thankful. I am thankful even though I know it is triple negative stage 2 grade 3, it could be a lot worse and I am thankful it is not.
I feel alone even when I am not alone, everyone seems to have a free mind, they laugh, talk, shop and so on. I laugh and talk and shop, but not with a free mind. I even think twice if I should buy something for myself. I wonder if I will be here for the holidays or even for our anniversary in August. These are negative thoughts, and I know I should not think them, but sometimes they just pop in my mind.
God has blessed me in so many ways, I pray that He continues to. I'm a fighter, I gave it all I had the first time, and I am trying to do it again this time. You should continue to do so too.
We are sisters, with our sisters standing behind us - we can do this. With our strong Faith, we can get through this. With determination we can get through this. With prayer we will get though this.
Dee, February's daughter