Thursday, January 21, 2010

WILLPOWER

How many of us have will-power? Believe it or not, a lot of people do. They turn down deserts, second helpings and quit smoking cold turkey!
I quit smoking in 1991 and have not regretted it. I am proud of myself that I was able to do it. I also lost weight and kept it off for years. I did Jenny Craig and I did a 1000 calorie a day diet. Both times were very successful for me.  Jenny Craig moved out of Waterworks to Monroeville - to far to travel for me plus pay turnpike fair so I did the 1000 calorie diet. It worked for me.

  I had always been thin from the time I was born, I could eat whatever I wanted as often as I wanted and not put on a pound, I bore 4 sons and always got my weight back to where it was before pregnancy,  I took it for granted, in fact  lot of times I thought I was to thin, I am a firm believer you can never be to thin unless you are anorexics.

I went to the gym, I had a personal trainer for years, I walked - I did it all and then I got burned out. I started to put on the pounds a little at a time, it was not real noticeable at first. My clothes got a little tighter and I went up a size - but size 10 was still acceptable to me. Plus every office I worked in the women were thin & fashionable and that helped me stay on track. The last place I worked (13 yrs!) two others plus myself use to be called the 3 Musketeers because we wore the same size & dressed up plus we were always eating salads & fruit.
My diet consisted of one large glass of orange juice for breakfast, a can of vegetables OR watermelon for
lunch and a jenny craig meal for dinner or a piece of chicken,  fish & vegetables. Nothing went in my mouth at
night even when we went out.

So what the hell happened to me?  I guess I got burned out, I was tired of watching what I ate so I stopped. And even though I still had a personal trainer I was eating to many calories and not burning enough to compensate. That was the stupidest mistake ever. I was tired all the time and no matter what, I kept putting on weight, Why? I went to the doctor to find out - it was my thryroid! My thyroid went cofluey , my immune system attacked it and I have Hiroshima's Disease and Hypothyroidism!  Trying to lose weight with all that was to much for me to handle, no excuse - I should of had more self control but because I didn't I am now a very hefty woman with a very hefty hernia and no will  power!  I truly have to do something because it is harder for me to move, And they won't operate on me till I lose 30 to 35 lb. because I could develop lung problems. Not to mention that I am a 3 yr survivor of Breast Cancer and should be taking better care  of myself.
Can I once again rise to the occasion, will my body co-operate or at 67 am I to old? Will I be able to say NO to all things that should not go into my mouth? - this is my mountain I HAVE to climb - starting now -
I will keep you abreast of it and maybe in this way I will have the will power

1 comment:

Lisa E said...

Dee, You need to join sparkpeople. I am there again. It is just like the weight watchers site, but free. I have been tracking food since New Years. I love this site although my weight loss is slower than ever this time. I have lost and gained a massive amount of weight twice before. I still have not found a dress for Shannons wedding and I dread trying on a dress with this freakin flubber. Anyhow,. check out sparkpeople.com (if you already haven't) My name there is (dont you laugh) tinydancer. Peace to you lovely lady.

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SO MANY THINGS TO BE THANKFUL FOR

This time of year makes me think of all of those things I have to be thankful for - - - -
my husband
my children
my grandchildren
my health
my freedom
always thankful for friends made