This morning I read where another one of my pink sisters passed away. She's a dear soul who was diagnosed after my second diagnoses. We became friends through one of the support groups I belong to on line.
Yes, I'm SCARED - Yesterday I was so positive and today I am full of doubt. Lori was so hopeful and positive. She tried the natural way of treatment first and when that didn't work she went with the chemo. So many of my sisters are losing their battle after fighting so hard. Young women that have young children, Lori who is in her early fifties with young adult children.
I can't help but ask WHY! They need money for research that they don't have, which ties their hands from doing more - they have money for all other kind of research that is truly not life threatening why not put that money towards a cure for cancer instead?
I know I have faith, but when reading of the loss of a sister all of my doubts resurface, all of my anxieties awaken because Lori was like the rest of us. She wanted to live for her family and to see them grow, for grandchildren, for life it self and she didn't - - - -
Venting my frustrations and fears out loud and praying, praying hard for faith once more to be mine and to realize that I have to have the serenity to accept the things I cannot change and to change the things I can, I have to keep saying this like a mantra till it is embedded in my head.
May God bless Lori's family with strength to get through this terrible terrible time - Rest in peace my friend - you will be missed by so many